Work Blues
Work has been incredibly stressful and busy lately. This happens to be a very busy time where I am juggling 3 large projects, all of which are basically due at about the same time.
The problem is that I really don't know what I am doing or how to approach a couple of these projects since we want to make such drastic changes from what we've done in the past. It's probably my fault that I can't figure this out, which is especially frustrating. I am completely lost on so many levels, and I find that my staff and my manager are doing things that I feel like I should be doing. I know that I am not doing a great job, which is the most frustrating part. No one has told me that I suck, and it's probably not quite as bad as I think it is. However, I guess I just expect more from myself, even if I have been in this role for less than three months. I told my manager that I wanted to sit down and discuss feedback on my performance early next week since I suspect that it will be mixed at best. Hopefully some good will come out of that.
I haven't failed this badly at work since I started my last role back in mid-2004. At least I have not had many 2AM nights like I did in January 2005 to figure out all the disasters I created, but this still sucks. I've spent a good portion of my evenings recently working from home. I'm sure I'll get through it and be much better prepared for these types of projects the next time, but that doesn't really help me right now. I'm just really frustrated and hoping that I will not be working crazy hours all summer. It's one thing to work crazy hours when it's cold and snowy outside, but I won't give up my summer for my job as easily.
The problem is that I really don't know what I am doing or how to approach a couple of these projects since we want to make such drastic changes from what we've done in the past. It's probably my fault that I can't figure this out, which is especially frustrating. I am completely lost on so many levels, and I find that my staff and my manager are doing things that I feel like I should be doing. I know that I am not doing a great job, which is the most frustrating part. No one has told me that I suck, and it's probably not quite as bad as I think it is. However, I guess I just expect more from myself, even if I have been in this role for less than three months. I told my manager that I wanted to sit down and discuss feedback on my performance early next week since I suspect that it will be mixed at best. Hopefully some good will come out of that.
I haven't failed this badly at work since I started my last role back in mid-2004. At least I have not had many 2AM nights like I did in January 2005 to figure out all the disasters I created, but this still sucks. I've spent a good portion of my evenings recently working from home. I'm sure I'll get through it and be much better prepared for these types of projects the next time, but that doesn't really help me right now. I'm just really frustrated and hoping that I will not be working crazy hours all summer. It's one thing to work crazy hours when it's cold and snowy outside, but I won't give up my summer for my job as easily.
posted by GaryGinew at 9:41 PM
2 Comments:
"The problem is that I really don't know what I am doing"
There's a phrase I never thought you would write/say/admit to thinking! Just kidding Gary - I hope work becomes less stressful soon and that your talk with your manager goes well!
I KNOW!!! That's how bad this week has been. At least I was able to leave work at 6:15 today. Too bad that meant I was 30 minutes late to a pre-wedding cookout/party. I hate feeling stupid at work.
Post a Comment
<< Home